Married this month…

It’s May 1st, 2015. In 22 days from today I will marry my best friend! It feels so surreal that in just a few short days I will call Richie my husband. Wow. I’m searching deep within for the thoughts that I have on this topic. I’m not sure what I am thinking except that I’m excited! I think back to a year ago. I felt so far away from Richie at that point. He was still living in Connecticut. We had been in a 2.5 year distance relationship, yet, there were things that we still didn’t know about each other. I hid some things from my past from him. In fact, Richie took a second job around this time last year at another restaurant, and I was busy fervently trying to finish graduate school. I remember I found out the day I had to present my thesis that Richie had taken this position. I was sitting in a study room trying to prepare for the presentation, and I was so upset that because of the interview, he couldn’t be with me on this important day. Wasn’t I special to him?

I didn’t want to make him come, if he didn’t want to, or couldn’t. I didn’t want to push myself on him. I decided to back off and let him take the lead of initiating in this relationship. I remember thinking that if things were not going to work out in this relationship, or if his heart wasn’t in it as much as mine was (that struck me that day!), that it would be SO hard cause my heard was definitely in it. I realized how much of my heart I had given to this man, hopefully for good reason! I didn’t want to be or seem needy, or make things happened. But in my heart I knew how much of myself I had given to this man, and I deeply wanted things to move forward, not backwards… and with this new position, and my fieldwork beginning, I knew we’d hardly see each other that summer. So I cried for a few minutes, prayed that I could surrender this, and then calmed myself down. And I went to my thesis presentation. That month was hard. I didn’t see Richie for a whole month. It was typical back then to go a few weeks without seeing each other, but a months felt hard. I did have alot on my plate to keep me occupied however. Little did I know, that a year from then, almost to the week, we’d be joining hands in marriage.

Basically, Richie took that job, and realized after a month of working there, that he just couldn’t stand not seeing me, and he wanted the relationship too; and not only did he want the relationship, but he wanted to marry me ASAP! So he left the job and used the money he made to buy me an engagement ring. And proposed a month and a half later. Little did I know that this year would be a crazy wonderful year of the Lord preparing our hearts for marriage and joining us together emotionally, and spiritually. This has been one of the best years of my life. When Richie proposed, it was one of the only weekends we had together last year. I still felt like we didn’t fully know each other, and I wondered what it would be like to be married. But of course, we knew we fully loved each other, so I said a whole hearted YES, when he asked me for my hand in marriage. But now, 10 months later, our love is so much more deep, so much more real. I know who I am marrying, the Lord helped us to open up our hearts to each other. He has done a great work in our lives. And we love each other so deeply and I have no doubt that this marriage is of the Lord. I’m so happy and blessed to get to marry my best friend this month!!! Grateful…

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