when i’m faithless; You are Faithful

I’m grateful to know that when I am faithless, I can trust that God is faithful and that I can place all my Hope in His steadfast promises.

I’ve been overwhelmed and scared lately, but I can place all my Hope in Him… He is good and will take care of me no matter what ❤ I know it

I know a fount where sins are washed away,
I know a place where night is turned to day;
Burdens are lifted, blind eyes made to see;
There’s a wonderworking pow’r
in the blood of Calvary.

life pieces scattered

”I’m giving You fear and You give faith
I giving you doubt 
You give me grace
; For every step I’ve never been alone. 

Even when it hurts, You’ll have Your way
; Even in the valley I will say- 
With every breath, 
You’ve never let me go”

I am the type of person who likes to have the major pieces of my life puzzle in order. At this point in my life, they are so not in order. I am having a wedding in 5 months with the love of my life, but things are so not in order. And it’s not even about wedding details. It’s more like the life details!!! Some big pieces of our puzzle just aren’t in place. Some of these major things are where we will live (that depends on where and if my fiancé gets a job- we would like to start out in my area, but if he cannot find a job in my area, we will move to his area which is about 3 hours away from where I live). I need to finish grad school and pass my registry exam. Then I will have to find a job! Then there are lots of little wedding details to figure out. As a person who does not like stress and likes my life pieces in order, my puzzle is quite scattered right now!

Maybe it’s a time once again, to step back, and hand all of those pieces to the Lord and tell him, “do what you want with them”. Just like with anything else in my life… grad school, my eating disorder. He always surprises me with the result when I just surrender. When I give him my fear, He hands me faith, and He always gives me more grace. I have seen so many times the work of the Lord in my life… I know that truly He will protect my family if we surrender those puzzle pieces to Him. He will create a more beautiful picture, then I could have ever created. i remember when other things in my life seemed completely hopeless and then I handed those things to the Lord and He made something more beautiful than I could have imagined with them! God is a master at recycling trials and pains to bring us gain and to create beauty. My messed up relationship with my mother, my terrible relationship with food. What God has done in my life is as miracle. I know that He will do this again with what I’m concerned about now, and will continue to be faithful in the future. I’m trusting, and am so grateful for that reassurance.
It truly is so sweet and precious to be able to trust in Jesus and take Him at His word and rest upon His promise and know “thus saith the Lord”. Jesus Jesus how I truly you, how I’ve proved you over and over. Jesus, Jesus, Precious Jesus; Oh for Grace to trust Him More.






My lifelong favorite Hymn. I think I want that to be the song I walk down the aisle to at my wedding. the theme song of my life ❤


Psalm 91

Psalm 91New International Version (NIV)

Psalm 91

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

Surely he will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers,
    and under his wings you will find refuge;
    his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because he[b] loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
    I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
    I will be with him in trouble,
    I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
    and show him my salvation.”